I am one silly little human.

There are two songs I adore with the fullness of my being, the two songs I know to avoid.

a thorny lyric a heart can exsanguinate.

…is exhausting

Can’t I just do everything on my own without societal norms to comply with?

So Darlene mentioned to me last week that she had some ties that her husband no longer used that she thought I might enjoy. I hesitantly said, “Sure, bring them in”

So today she surprised me with 14 ties. All skinny. Some silk, some woven, one leather.

How often are hand me downs so freaking awesome, and right up my alley?

Merci Darlene (and your hubby who had excellent taste in the 70’s)!

…how Michelle Obama wiped the floor with Carla Bruni last week.

The, CARLA BRUNI.

BBar on Tuesdays is still the most exciting outing in gay NYC. Or so I think. Last night just cemented my year long belief. Wish I could make it out more often.

Oh well. Life is exciting right now. New adventures around each corner.

;)

This Saturday will potentially be an event 3 years in the making. It takes place in Brooklyn. I might wear a Dior tie, I might not.

scheisse.

me: I mean, I love living in New York, I still do all these years later. But I mean, there isn’t a week that goes by that I don’t have the itch to move away. I feel like I’m missing out on trying something new and being elsewhere by being in one place the entire time.

friend: I think you’d miss it if you left

me: I know I would, and maybe I need to miss it to appreciate it again

friend: Fair enough

me: I think I’m just constantly restless, always looking for something new

friend: Oh.

me: what

friend: You’re not good boyfriend material then, definitely not.

me: Well I don’t think that’s entirely fair.

friend: I mean, hear me out. How long was your longest relationship?

me: well… 3 months.

friend: Not that it’s a bad thing, but how come you’ve never been with someone for longer than that?

me: I guess I’ve only once really been into anyone. Every other time, I give people a chance, then don’t feel a complete spark and figure it’s not worth it.

friend: But it’s not always about that. Relationships will always require some work. Nothing is every going to be dreamy and just magically work out, and I mean, if you’re always restless and wanting something new, you’re never going to get to that point with anyone before you discard of them.

me: well…

friend: You’re going to have to get beyond that restlessness to ever have a chance at having a relationship that lasts longer than 3 months.

me: hmm…I guess

friend: …and I mean, you’re smart, so I think you’ll be able to, but it’s going to be a constant struggle for you, and it may a long time until you get there.